Friday, September 20, 2013

How Dare I.

How dare I, O Lord, how dare I ask for Your forgiveness for my sinful and wretched soul.
How dare I ask for forgiveness when I have slain the souls of those who try to love me and guide me to Your loving light, instead exhalting those who share in my sinful ways.
How dare I, O Lord, how dare I ask for Your forgivenss for my countless and repeated transgressions.
How dare I ask for mercy when I know nothing of giving mercy to those who love me and whose trangression against me is a minor incovenience,, instead being merciful to those to whom mercy means nothing, and will use it for evil  purposes.
How dare I, O Lord, how dare I ask for Your forgiveness for my prideful boasting.
How dare I ask for Your love when my prideful and sinful nature neglects the Glory You shared with me for what little benefit I have given this world, and instead pretend that it is I, and not You, who accomplished what I claim to have done.
How dare I, O Lord, how dare I ask for Your forgiveness, for my neglectful and careless manner of prayer.
How dare I ask that You bestow upon me that which I wish when I have not only failed to give thanks for but have further abused and destroyed the gifts You entrusted me with.
How dare I, O Lord, how dare I ask for Your forgiveness and how dare I lift up my eyes to Heaven.
How dare I look up to Heaven as a destination to which I plan to go when I fail to keep Holy and instead defile myself with that which saddens You.
How dare I, O Lord, how dare I ask for Your forgiveness for my insolence and lack of consideration of my brothers and sisters.
How dare I think myself a humble servant when I go about insulting others, thinking myself clever, instead of edifying their hearts with the love I so undeservedly have received from You.
How dare I, O Lord, how dare I ask for Your forgiveness for my Pharisaical habits.
How dare I ask for mercy when I look down upon my brothers and sisters for their sins and affronts when mine are greater in number and scope, and when mine have inflicted greater damage to others than has been done to me.
How dare I, O Lord, how dare I ask for Your forgiveness again and again.
How dare I keep breaking my promise to You, O Lord, whose mercies and kindness are limitless, who are patient and long suffering, when in me I can find no mercy, kindness, or patience.
How dare I, O Lord, how dare I ask for Your forgiveness for what has come out of my mouth.
How dare I ask for mercy from the lips I use to hurt others, to spread that which is not of Your goodness, and which have told countless lies as if they are a child's fable.
How dare I, O Lord, how dare I ask for Your forgiveness.
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me, a sinner.